No man's land

I've met a lot of people over the past 2 months being here and often we will get into really random conversations. Yesterday was no exception. We were talking about the area in between 2 countries where it does not belong to either country until you cross the border officially into the other country. In this "no man's land" anything happens and you are not protected if anything happens. 

I started thinking about this... with 2 months left... I still feel like I'm in no man's land at times. Don't get me wrong, I love the people I've met here, it has been an experience of a lifetime, I'm been able to travel and I do not regret this decision to travel and experience the world on my own, but it always feels like something's missing. I think there's just a point where you decide what your core values are... and to me, it's no longer WHERE I am but WHO I'm with. I miss my friends and family so much and I wish I were there for them... hence I'm in "no man's land" in the middle of living my life, and not really "living it". I feel like I'm here, and it's my life. 

It's so cliche, but I love this song, so I'm just going to play along with the lyrics (Michael Buble - Home):

"May be surrounded by a million people, i still feel all alone, I just wanna go home... and I just feel like I'm living someone else's life..."